Friday Blog Musings

I've been feeling weirded out by blogging lately. I can't really explain why; it could be because the other day I got quite morose about how many people I used to exchange comments and e-mails with who have now pretty much dropped out of Blog World. I thought they were "friends" and then they just...disappeared. And I guess it made me feel that this whole blogging thing is superficial and temporary, so why invest my emotions into it? However, I'm not that kind of person, although I wish I were at times. I care too much--at school, at home, with friends, and sometimes I feel like it just leads to disappointment. This Friday we fly to St. Louis for Level 9 Western Nationals, and I have my usual packet of flight, rental car, hotel, Map Quest and meet info. As usual, I'm starting to obsess worry about packing, the weather and why my child can't manage to get a decent vault. She said to me today that vault has been awful bad, so now I'm dreading watching that.It's hard to spend near to $2000 to travel somewhere and then anticipate "suckiness." Maybe that will make it easier for her and me to give up this whole gymnastics experience. Older Daughter called last night, and she had had a GREAT day; being her mother's daughter, it's difficult for her to admit that. And she finally, after approximately 50 applications and interviews plus much hard work and angst got a job here. It is located in a quite swanky Seattle hotel, and the menus include mostly ingredients that I don't recognize. I was relieved to read...salmon, rueben(isn't it reuben?) and veal, which were words I knew. (what are marselan syrup, tabiko, quinoa, cabales,pommery mustard, asiago, tamari, marcona almonds, etc...?) No, I don't really want to know, just in case any gourmets read this blog. Anyway, it's been a beast of a week, and I'm on to the weekend, with a good book(I hope) and a couple of Hefs. Au revoir, Blogger Buddies. I'm not yet ready to say Adieu.

Comments

[danelle]

Im so guilty of that, not blogging, not commenting. I'm trying to be better cause I know how it feels to get no comments day after day. Even worse I look at my stats and know 30 people a day are reading but nobody gives a shit enough to say "hey".

So, just letting you know I give a shit.

[Liora]

I'm a blogging dropout, but I haven't stopped being your friend and remember and caring about how many wise words you gave me when I was blogging. I felt guilty stopping my blog, but I had to. The cancer was over, and I was tired of talking. For me, blogging can be something that gives me a sense of doing without my actually doing things I need to be doing. Cancer made me see through some of my own BS and tolerate it less. I do use Facebook and post pictures there. I know it's not quite the same. I'm afraid I don't have much going on in my life to really write about. I also became self conscious about the rest of the world (not blog friends, but those casual people strolling through) reading it. I was feeling too exposed. You are still absolutely my blogfriend--my friend--and I am serious that if you're ever near Atlanta, you must MUST email me. I would love to get together in person. And who knows...maybe I'll have another blog someday. I'm just not there yet. Until then, I'm still reading yours.

[Lee Anne]

I think the blog world has become something strange. People seem to expect comments and if they don't get any stop blogging. Not that I am saying that is what you are doing. I am saying that is why I think you have had so many people come and go. I know when my boys were born I didn't get to blog/check other people's blogs for really a good year. But I came back. :) You have people that know and love you and will always be there for you. Time is the true test of friendship.

[Marie]

I've certainly noticed the ups and downs of blogging now that I've committed to a daily post for the year. I feel like my regular posters are getting bored with my "material", but since I have a project in mind for the year (plus I'm busy with other things, too), I am trying not to care. I also found that I wasn't receiving posts to my email for the last 4 days or so. Anyway, I always enjoy reading your blog, hearing what's going on, commiserating with daily life challenges, so don't give up. I also enjoy that you take the time to respond to most of my comments. :)

[Karan]

I'm in a slump myself but I do try to visit the blogs of online buddies...and I do plan to get back to regular posting...it's just that I'm in a sad blogging state right now. I'll get better. I promise.

[Tonya]

It is sad to lose blogger friends. There are a number of those that have left that I wonder about, what they are doing, how their lives are going. And I miss them. But I have had enjoyment finding new bloggers. And I remind myself that I blog for "me" (sort of narcissistic but oh well).

[Miz S]

I miss Vicki and Bonnie, although they surface occasionally to say "hey."

In real-life, people move or change jobs and some of them stay in touch and some don't. I have some internet friends with whom I hope I am forging true friendships, but I guess only time will tell.

But I get what you're saying and I agree with you. Blogging is weird sometimes.

[Laura]

I think its just the natural progression of blogging. Ive lost readers here and there too. Its funny how personal I take it....Deb keeps reminding me not to let it get to me...but it does.

Im still here for you Sis! HUGS!

Congrats to Ash!

And good luck with Alison!

[old horsetail snake]

Yeah, you gotta stick with us. I love the tales of your family. (P.S. asiago is cheese. I just had to show off.....)

[Michelle]

Nice gig she got there. I know those foods!

The blog friend thing is weird. Still, it's hard to imagine not being in contact with you and a few others over there after all these years.

[Wende]

I've been slogging through my archives, trying to clean them up. Lots of broken links and weird import text. And I can't help but notice that while my stats are up, commenting is WAY down. People do sorts filter in and then filter out.

It's difficult. If you give it any thought, you do wonder why. Especially when you see those people on other blogs. But the more I think about it, the more I'm trying to focus on who IS here. And be thankful for them.

With that said, I'm thankful to have met you and for your faithful commenting on my blog. Drink up, darling. You are very loved.

[Chatty]

Hey now! I was in Florida and in that state of mind before! I am here!

[chuck]

I suppose you are addressing these comments at me? Guilt me into commenting? Yeah, I have sucked at it the last two years, but the little one is sucking the life right out of me! Which is perfectly fine of course, the way it should be. I barely have time for my own blog anymore, it gets harder to get around to others.

My readers and comments have dropped off too, but it is not why I do it, shouldn't be for you either. I would look at it as a personal journal of your life, something your kids and grandkids can go back and read when we are long gone. Friends, comments, they come and go, you just keep doing what you are doing and others will find you, like the tide, it goes in and out, in and out, always bringing something new.