This is my sad attempt to be funny about something that really isn't. Today I came home to find 3 messages on the answering machine for my husband from our local hospital about tests and checking in, etc. At that point, my stomach sunk down to my shoes because I realized that the pesky CT scan that I had felt such apprehension about had been sh*tty. Apparently, the oncologist called him today with the news that he has some sort of lesion on his lung and liver. Dr. B. was supposed to contact me too (but didn't) and I could tell that Mr. Stargazer wasn't very thrilled to explain it all to me when I called his cell phone, semi-hysterical. There are several possibilities but I'm thinking cancer, Stage 4 and the LIVER? I'm not in a good place right now. Life has been so beautifully normal since October, yet in my head, I knew it couldn't last. *sigh* If you're a praying or positive thoughts sort, we could use them right now as we face a couple of horrific biopsies and then...whatever else we have to face. P.S. I'm thankful for my daughters, who are exactly what I need right now, in their different ways. Ashley nurtured me with lots of sympathy, while Alison gave me a "tough love" pep talk. My girls are the best!
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I wish there was some way I could make it all better.
Posted by: Mike | February 28, 2012 at 07:21 PM
Margaret, belated congratulations to Ashley on UCLA! It is great to be wanted!
As for today's post, sending prayer and positive thoughts.
Posted by: Laura | February 28, 2012 at 08:20 PM
Positive thoughts, healing energy and a hug from here.
Posted by: Zazzy | February 28, 2012 at 08:42 PM
Lots of good thoughts from here. I'm sorry.
Posted by: Mary | February 28, 2012 at 09:07 PM
Oh, jeeze, Margaret, this sucks. You've certainly got my healing energy blasting your way.
Posted by: Tonya | February 28, 2012 at 09:11 PM
So sorry. One foot, then the other. Sending vibes, and strength
Posted by: Jay | February 28, 2012 at 09:30 PM
I wish I knew the right words to say. You are in my thoughts, my dear friend.
Posted by: ms_teacher | February 28, 2012 at 09:42 PM
Positive thoughts coming your way!
Posted by: mccgood | February 29, 2012 at 03:06 AM
Just saw your comment and came straight over here. I'll be praying in my own godless way...
Posted by: kayak woman | February 29, 2012 at 04:22 AM
Oh Margaret. Keeping a good thought for you and yours.
Posted by: Kathy | February 29, 2012 at 04:37 AM
Crap, sometimes life sure knows how to punch in the gut. Good thoughts and hugs headed your way.
Posted by: katie | February 29, 2012 at 05:52 AM
Shoot. I'll pray for strength and healing. Big HUGS.
Posted by: Michelle | February 29, 2012 at 06:32 AM
Hmmm. Not happy to read this. Still, make no assumptions about what it all means until you know for sure what it means. Consider good thoughts sent your way.
Posted by: Ally Bean | February 29, 2012 at 06:42 AM
So sorry to hear this, Margaret. I'm a-praying for better news ahead.
Posted by: Kristy | February 29, 2012 at 07:05 AM
Sorry for that news. Sending more positive healing thoughts.
Posted by: Marie K | February 29, 2012 at 07:20 AM
Thinking of you. xo
Posted by: Alison | February 29, 2012 at 10:01 AM
Sending good thoughts your way. /hug
Posted by: Adrasteia | February 29, 2012 at 11:15 AM
I'm gasping with you...take deep breaths and plow forward. You and Mr. NY Stargazer can do this.
Posted by: Karan | February 29, 2012 at 01:00 PM
Ah man, sending all good thoughts your way!
Posted by: Maggie | February 29, 2012 at 01:26 PM
You're all in my prayers.
Posted by: Tracy | February 29, 2012 at 01:31 PM
Oh Margaret...I'm so sorry about the CT scan, - don't assume the worst - even though I tend to do that too...Adding my prayers, asking the Lord to give you whatever you need to move forward through this.
Big HUG,
Margaret
Posted by: Margaret | February 29, 2012 at 01:51 PM
Very sorry to read about this. I'll also send positive energy your way. Take it a day at a time if possible. Tomorrow is just a theoretical construct. Today is what matters. Have a great meal tonight, watch a funny movie tonight. Make today count. We should all do that.
Posted by: Pam J. | February 29, 2012 at 02:06 PM
I am praying.
Posted by: Donna W | February 29, 2012 at 02:55 PM
I'm so sorry about this setback. Sending prayers for healing for your husband and peace for you.
Posted by: Jan | March 01, 2012 at 02:16 AM
Oh jeez Margaret. This is shitty news indeed. I've been all wrapped up in my own stuff and am just now seeing this. Please know how much we all love you and how strongly we root for Mr Stargazer and the whole Stargazer family.
Posted by: Miz S | March 03, 2012 at 05:43 AM