"Love is something eternal; the aspect may change, but not the essence."
-Vincent van Gogh
Today, like every Valentine's Day in a high school, was hell a rough day; add to the craziness that it was the last day before Mid-Winter break! Enough said. When I got up this morning, I dreaded work and the holiday and felt a bit like I did on Christmas: my mantra--just get through the day. Patt and I were never sappy about VD, but we did exchange cute cards and he would always buy me a plant(when he was hopeful I could keep it alive) and then later just a bouquet. He didn't like cut flowers much, but he knew I did, so that's what mattered to him. This weekend is his Celebration of Life which is starting to stress me out a LITTLE. (too many unknowns) In my subtle and anonymous way, I called out a few people in my last Caring Bridge post. ;) It felt good.
Two of the most important groups in my life are my Book Club and the Ram Ladies; some of the people overlap which is very special. I met them all through work; many of us were close colleagues and friends while teaching World Language. Both of these gorgeous candles/fire pots were gifts to brighten my life, the bottom one a total surprise today from Book Club. It came with a gift card to a local nursery; spring will be a poignant time for me since planting season was one of my husband's favorite times of the year. He loved the spring, the light, turning the soil, getting his hands dirty--me not so much! Last year he was too weak to actually plant; however, he did a very effective job of bossing me around/coaching me. :) Our flowers and tomatoes did great! This year, I'll have to do it on my own. Tonight I'll also be alone watching the DVDs that Costco made from our videos; seeing and hearing him again is pretty eerie, but something that reminds me of what a caring dad and person he was, as well as how annoying he could be. ;) "Honey, did you get Kiwi(the dog) jumping up to bite the fireworks on tape?" "Honey, JUST press the *whatever* button to take it off zoom!" or "Margaret, Margaret, get a video of me wheeling Ashley around with the dog in this wheelbarrow!" A bittersweet Valentine's Day for me, but better because of the love and kindness of friends.