I'm a huge believer in finding joy in the small things, which has allowed me to live my life in relative happiness.(in spite of a bunch of sh*t happening, and tragedies taking away those I loved) Getting these gorgeous tulips from my friend last week made my day, and then when they started to bloom, I was even more entranced by them. During our span of gray, rainy days, I found solace in their beauty. As a survivor of loss, a pet peeve I have is when people(including me!) sometimes ignore the "small things" because they are just waiting for better weather, the weekend, vacation, or whatever supposedly great event is coming. My late husband would have said not to put off living, no matter what the circumstances. He would have laughed sardonically about so many complaining about the weather ruining their existence. I can hear him saying, "You're ALIVE, aren't you?" Thus, I am writing about what I am thankful for:
- Ashley's plane from Seattle to Los Angeles on Sunday actually landed in Ontario, California, only 35 miles from downtown LA. They had hydraulic failure and had to be towed to the gate. (I got very little sleep that night, thinking of the possibilities) But in spite of the seriousness of the situation, everyone on the plane was safe, although inconvenienced (which I'm sure many made a BIG ISSUE OF). When Henry, my retired Boeing guy, explained to me yesterday what hydraulics do and how important they are, I became even more terrified about what could have happened. But it didn't, and I need to remember that.
- Alison invited me to a gymnastics regional competition April 1st at the University of Washington and I'm SO excited to watch high level gymnastics again. I'm also thrilled that she wants to spend time with me! We were supposed to get together for Pi Day on March 14th, but she had to pick up her boyfriend at the airport instead. Pi Day is very important to people with math degrees. I'm more about the excuse to go out for dinner, and maybe PIE. :)
- My lovely mom and dad are taking care of Mari, who has essentially become my cat! I'm grateful that they are still in decent enough health to do so. We chatted tonight when I dropped the kitty off; it never gets old to share stories with them. They are hilarious! I adore and admire my parents, and am thankful to still have them with us.
- Tomorrow I leave for Los Angeles to spend time with Ashley, and I'm looking forward to coffee, drinks, talks, laughs and whatever other adventures we get up to. I'm hoping for only positive ones! I'm very happy to have such a close relationship with both my girls. And I can't complain about the weather forecast down there, although I was hoping for a bit warmer. :)
- Dating Henry can be problematic at times, but when it's good, it's intensely wonderful. I love the laughs, the hugs, the closeness, the feeling of having a possible future with someone, even though it won't ever be marriage since neither one of us feels the necessity.Tomorrow, he'll pick me up at 8:15 for breakfast, then drive me to the airport on the anniversary of our first date a year ago. It's been a bit of a roller coaster with its ups and downs, but as a friend mentioned, he has always come back to me after his depressive episodes. I'm starting to let myself believe (a little bit) that he'll be in my life long term. And though I always try to be prepared for the worst, I would like him to be.