I've been dreading today due to my dental appointment this morning. My feelings had nothing to do with fear of the actual appointment since my grandfather was a dentist, my dentist for many years. Grandpa did yell at me for not flossing which was upsetting, but I've never had a cavity so I guess he instilled good dental hygiene in me. I was anxious because I knew they would express their condolences about my dad who was a long time patient. Like *everyone else, they adored his sparkle, wit, kindness and courtly demeanor. I wasn't sure how I would react to their sympathy; I've found that it can cause all the emotions to boil over. Perhaps that's a positive thing, but I wasn't looking forward to it. As it turned out, I did OK; I only got a little choked up, but not bad. Whew.
My hair has misbehaved horribly today; it's been wispy and sticking out all over. I literally don't know what to do with it! Tomorrow will be even worse since John and I are taking the bikes over to Anderson Island to enjoy the 79 degree sunshine. Helmet hair plus a crappy haircut? Bring it on.
Pinks, purples and reds are dominant in my decimated tulip family. Sigh.
These guys are soaking up the sun!
These peony style ones are in the back flower bed where no one can see them except me.
Remember when only one of these was blooming? This run of crazy 70 degree April weather is bringing them on fast. I'm just glad to finally see some colorful flowers, even though they aren't my favorite.
*my mom has been annoying weird lately, and finds every excuse to criticize my dad. John thinks it's part of her grief process, but it's SO difficult to listen to without responding emotionally. "Your dad needed to be more assertive. He let so and so get away with too much." "Your dad didn't help much when you four were babies." Geeze, that was 60 years ago! I'm barely holding on to my temper with her negativity yet I also don't want to say anything I'll regret. I'm relieved that I'll be away with John tomorrow, and will have a chance to take some deep breaths and think about how I want to handle this unexpected and unwelcome situation.
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