“I don't want to have these burdens. But I can't bear to turn them over to anyone else, either. Because, despite all the work, I like being in control of my own life.”
― Ship of Destiny
It took me a long time to realize that we're all carrying burdens and worries of some sort; there are simply people who hide it better than others. I'm not one of those. Yet it's comforting that we're in this sinking ship together although our issues vary between financial issues, loneliness, physical problems, emotional/mental distress, stress over loved ones (and decisions they make or don't make), or a combination of the aforementioned. Right now, I'm dealing with something potentially major that no one can help me with. Sometimes others can relieve some of the burden but this time I will need to carry it alone. Of course, my blog friends know that if this had to do with me, I would write about it here; since it doesn't, I'll just mention that I might be absent for a time. I'll need to process some sh*t things. Or I'll post cat photos and blog about nothings like I usually do. But I have to be honest that all is not sweetness and light chez moi. It probably isn't anywhere, is it? Have I ever mentioned that I absolutely hate drama? I'm a boring person.
Yesterday I got to spend time with both grandsons (and my daughter and son-in-law) plus this sadly neglected cat. (he thinks) He found my lap and parked himself there! Littlest Guy is so smiley now, but wow, does he spit up a lot. Every clean sweatshirt I wear to their house is soon anointed. I don't mind.
My own girl is great company, except when she steals my recliner. Since I live alone, it's comforting to have a pet. She really does love me in her own feline way. :)
At least there is currently no talk of the S word and I see some sunny days among the chilly winter temperatures. I'll have to drag my turtlenecks back out though because I intend to keep walking whenever I possibly can. My mental and emotional health require it. Sigh.
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